So yeah, it was a normal weekday, I've just come into the seminar room after having a very busy break, torn between eating so quickly my digestive system was crying along with catching up with my long-lost cousin ( I may write a post about that). Anyway, I stroll in and take a seat at the rear end of the classroom.
The Seminar leader, (whom I am actually scared to name), gave each of us a worksheet with bullet points for discussion around the reading we was prescribe earlier on in the week.
The seminar discussion starts, as always I have my hand up ready to answer each and every question, counter-act each and every statement and show off my intelligence to the class.
I mean they all look shocked when I use my top-of-the-class vocabulary within the appropriate context of the topic I am exploring, for a girl they quite frankly described as 'A South-London girl', 'A rude-girl', 'hood/street'. Little do they know, I was actually recommended by all the teachers at my college, as well as my peers and a lecturer from Prembrooke College, Oxford, to apply for Oxford University on account of my excellent grades and hard-working nature!
But yeah, so the seminar discussion is taking place, and it leads on to terrorism and how this concept is portrayed in the Media. I drew on the point that Muslims are always blamed for public disasters and that this results in Islam-phobia, to which the seminar leader responded by saying, 'Muslims are the ones that do it though'.
At this point, I literally felt soooo angry. I've got a really short temper and anger issues in general. I argued back,(loosing all respect for the lecturer at this point) by saying that those terrorist that commit terrorist attacks in the name of Allah do not represent Islam or the vast majority of Muslims, as Islam is a religion of peaceful submission to Allah. In Islam, killing on person is a huge sin, it is as if you killed the whole of mankind. In addition to this, suicide is forbidden in Islam too, as it goes against Allah's will, therefore how can suicide bombers and terrorist attacks represent Muslims, when it goes against the basic teaching of Islam?
Me and the seminar
leader had the whole class in fixation. Everyone was staring at me, giving me those 'I respect your courage in challenging this old Santa' and so on. With each sentence I threw at the seminar leader in order to defend my point, a new tear formed in my eyes, my heart was pounding fast. I was offended, very offended, how could he have said such a thing without then apologizing? Being the only Muslim in my class, amongst working/middle class Atheists and other world religions in my class, I felt isolated. Nevertheless, I made my point that terrorism is not just confined to Muslim countries, but varies over a wide spectrum of Non-Muslim countries over the globe.
After the seminar ended, while I was waiting for the lift downstairs, everyone in my class kept asking me if I'm okay and making comments about the seminar leader's bluntness and ignorance. However, I couldn't help but feel some sort if anger at the fact that no one was there to support me in the midst of the argument with the seminar leader when it was taking place.