From as long as I can remember, I have been a trainer freak, the thought of heels now excites me into planning a matching outfit with it. However, I must say, due to my unfortunate anxiety about falling over in them (I remember a time when I slipped in my kitten heels on the main road in Brixton) a few years back. And till this day, it creeps up on me and I feel anxious when I contemplate wearing heels.
I am now 21, and I am starting to think differently about my image. Always had a thing for branded sweaters and hoodies, trainers and just embracing the masculine mind (informally learning how most men think, due to conversations I have had with male friends), but in my own feminine way. But now I view myself as a woman, rather than a girl .. and quite frankly, believe that as much as I admire my urban edge and appearance, maybe I ought to make an effort to feel 'girly'.
So today, I went to visit a John Frieda hair stylist, who gave me a haircut that was much needed and deserved. I got her to put long layers in and put my hair into a v-cut, before curling my hair with Babyliss hair tongs, which took ages to heat. The whole experience made me feel good about myself, that I was finally doing something for me. Something nice for me, not anyone else. It definitely wasn't something that I was used to .. I mean I watched myself in the mirror with a proud feeling spreading across my chest .. the beautiful girl I was looking at .. was me. Another thing, my hair was down, well obviously it had to be down while the hair stylist was cutting it .. but I mean at the end when it was curled. My hair had wonderful volume in it and shined with a glossy and healthy curly look. I started getting compliments left right and centre, it really boosted my confidence.
With my recent thoughts on adopting for more dresses, and dropping the slang and going to the spa, I feel I'd be kidding myself if I really went for this 'girly' feel. I mean, I hate having my hair down (even today, after my hair got curled, I done a side pony) .. I don't do my nails (as I won't be allowed to pray if I do, it is not in adherence to Islamic guidelines .. yes, you may think its extreme, but its about purity and I'm content with it, soo hoo-rah) .. I hardly wear make up .. and have been told by many that I don't need it regardless and also have been mistaken for wearing certain make up products when nothing is on my face apart from moisturiser. In conclusion, though these ideals may make me feel 'girly', they aren't really my slice of apple pie.
I don't know how many people do this .. but I actually plan what I am going to wear the following day the night before. As much as I am content but willing to experiment with my personal style, especially by swapping my trainers for heels .. to anyone who is reading this, society and the accompanying media as well as other agents of socialization may make you feel like you have to live up to your supposed persona .. but forget all that and be you. BE-YOU-TIFUL :)
I am now 21, and I am starting to think differently about my image. Always had a thing for branded sweaters and hoodies, trainers and just embracing the masculine mind (informally learning how most men think, due to conversations I have had with male friends), but in my own feminine way. But now I view myself as a woman, rather than a girl .. and quite frankly, believe that as much as I admire my urban edge and appearance, maybe I ought to make an effort to feel 'girly'.
So today, I went to visit a John Frieda hair stylist, who gave me a haircut that was much needed and deserved. I got her to put long layers in and put my hair into a v-cut, before curling my hair with Babyliss hair tongs, which took ages to heat. The whole experience made me feel good about myself, that I was finally doing something for me. Something nice for me, not anyone else. It definitely wasn't something that I was used to .. I mean I watched myself in the mirror with a proud feeling spreading across my chest .. the beautiful girl I was looking at .. was me. Another thing, my hair was down, well obviously it had to be down while the hair stylist was cutting it .. but I mean at the end when it was curled. My hair had wonderful volume in it and shined with a glossy and healthy curly look. I started getting compliments left right and centre, it really boosted my confidence.
With my recent thoughts on adopting for more dresses, and dropping the slang and going to the spa, I feel I'd be kidding myself if I really went for this 'girly' feel. I mean, I hate having my hair down (even today, after my hair got curled, I done a side pony) .. I don't do my nails (as I won't be allowed to pray if I do, it is not in adherence to Islamic guidelines .. yes, you may think its extreme, but its about purity and I'm content with it, soo hoo-rah) .. I hardly wear make up .. and have been told by many that I don't need it regardless and also have been mistaken for wearing certain make up products when nothing is on my face apart from moisturiser. In conclusion, though these ideals may make me feel 'girly', they aren't really my slice of apple pie.
I don't know how many people do this .. but I actually plan what I am going to wear the following day the night before. As much as I am content but willing to experiment with my personal style, especially by swapping my trainers for heels .. to anyone who is reading this, society and the accompanying media as well as other agents of socialization may make you feel like you have to live up to your supposed persona .. but forget all that and be you. BE-YOU-TIFUL :)