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My Confidence Scares Women!

Let me start of by saying I love myself, I love how I look and I love how I am as a person. I am self -critical of my actions at times, but for the most part I love what I do and how I do it.










You might have smelt an air of confidence whilst reading the first two sentences of this post, however you will only know of my full confidence if you appeared in my proximity. Pretty much everyone I come in contact with notices my confidence and 8 times out of 10, commends me for it.

See the thing is, men love my confidence. I always get told by men that more women should be like me - willing to work hard like me, to be able to turn heads without wearing any make up like me, to get the respect I get single handedly. Getting compliments like this and feeling good on the inside, has contributed to my abundance of confidence. I walk as if my shit don't stink, but deep down I know it does - and so therefore, I am confident, but humble too. And that's another thing men seem to pick up on in my mannerisms, they claim that the fact that I see myself as equal to other human beings is regarded highly, since the women of today seem to be the total opposite. Personally, I think women of today are mostly like that for the simple reasons of illusionary appreciation. What is this I hear you ask? Well in today's day and age, it = over 100 likes on an Instagram picture & the swarm of bees ( well in this case men) who approach them based on their artificial beauty (99% of it can be wiped of with baby wipes!)

 Don't get it twisted, I'm not taking dabs at anyone, its just I take complete pride in the woman I have become and I am humbled by people's recognition of my good characteristics and my reason to be confident with who and what I am.

21 years on, I look at myself with awe in the mirror, taking time to take my beauty in, no really I mean it. From head to toe, I scan myself and smile, I feel proud and blessed that I look so great. I say Ma Shaa Allah (an Arabic phrase) whilst appreciating my beauty by giving thanks to Allah for creating me. And this is where it starts. Allah has created the universe and everything it, and that includes me. Allah's creation are beautiful, therefore I am beautiful.

I would like to state that it is not just my looks that I am confident about, but my whole demeanour, my personality and my work ethic. I am confident, because I am extremely hard working and never give up and so I believe in myself. I am confident because I know I can get attention without putting on make up or dressing half-naked. I am confident because I am a religious person who believes in the Qadr ( will ) of Allah and that what is meant for me, will never flee from me.

Now this all sounds good I hear you murmuring to yourself, it is and for that I am hugely grateful. But what I have been experiencing lately, is girls around me turning up their noses or making funny faces, when men compliment me on my looks or character. Jealousy is a very ugly trait, and a lot of women seem to carry it along with them.  We'd all be lying if we said we haven't ever been jealous in our lives. However, I am now in a position in life, where I am so content with how and what  I am,  I couldn't care less if the grass was greener on the other side.  The grass is just as green on my side as far as I am concerned, and in my eyes, that is true confidence.

I have sat and thought about why my confidence seems to scare women and I have arrived at the conclusion that they view me as a threat and aspire to be like me. To have my confidence. To be the furthest you can from shy, to charm everyone they come in contact like I do and to share my charisma with the world as good as I do.

Whether I am sitting on the train, up in the air in a helicopter or in a supermarket, I am always the centre of attention, whether or not I speak. I live and breathe confidence. Some girls use MAC, some girls use MAYBELLINE, I use confidence, because it lasts longer. I am able to talk to pretty much anyone and win people over with a one-liner or some sort of banter. I enjoy interacting with people everywhere I go, and my bubbly nature is what people are attracted to. I receive compliments everywhere I am on how I am the funniest person someone has met and that I should never change.

In professional capacities and my individual circles of friendship, people are literally in awe of my ambition and work rate. I am forever receiving uplifting and inspirational messages from people I know praising me on my achievements and efforts. The other day, I was discussing writing an article for The Guardian Newspaper, and a girl sat next to me started laughing and coughing in a rude manner. This made me angry. Why does my nature upset you? If you really want to be like me and do the things I do, why don't you get up off your backside and do something?

Personally,I believe my confidence should not be mistaken for arrogance, but should be valued as self-love. I love myself and I am happy I do, after so long. And so if I intimidate anyone, they should start working on their confidence, without studying mine.

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